This is a letter to tell you how annoying I find your endless chatter. Stop coming up to me and telling me how to deal with my diabetes. I'm almost 20 years old which means I've had type one diabetes for over 18 years now. Stop trying to find out why I've 'lost hope' as you put it. I haven't lost hope, you nitwit. I'm dealing with reality. No I will not try going to that sheikh who 'does wonders' with natural medicines. Of course I believe that this is a test from God and I know that I'm far better off than people a couple years ago who were dying from diabetes but I'm not going to sit down for the rest of my life praying for diabetes to go away. I live with it each day and I understand that it's a shock for you to deal with your perfectly healthy daughter getting type one diabetes at 15 years old but honestly, I offered you my help. I did not ask for it in return. So please, stop acting as if you're the worldly mother who knows what's best for me. Your daughter and I differ in so many ways. I've got a different body type, I've had diabetes for a much longer time and my doctor does, in fact, keep me updated on the latest diabetes technology and breakthroughs. I chose old school syringes over the pump, you ninny. You are not helping me one iota but I've been humouring you and that was a mistake. You will never measure up to my mother's knowledge on diabetes because she's been a pseudo-nurse ever since I got this disease-- since I was 18 months old.
So, please. Back off already. Stop giving me lectures on how to deal with my sickness. I don't see diabetes as a hindrance to a regular life. It's a normal part of my life that I do not question; like the need to breathe, eat, and sleep. Controlling my diabetes is just another part of my daily routine. You look at me with pity every time you see me and I honestly see no reason why. You never looked at me that way before your daughter got diabetes. I appreciate your concern but you have to stop nagging me.
Also, you're a fool to want your daughter to hide her diabetes. Diabetes is not something to be ashamed of. You made me swear not to tell anyone for fear of your daughter being bullied for having a disease or because otherwise no one will marry her. That's a very narrow view of the world and you made it seem as if this thing that is now a part of your daughter's daily life as much as it is part of mine is something detestable. I've never received any hate or judgement because of my diabetes. Grow up and know that the people around your daughter need to be informed in case anything happens to her in order for them to know what to do.
Get a grip and please leave me alone. You make me feel as if there's something wrong with me when I'm actually a regular human being just like everyone else.
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